When you never die, finding a system is a good way to feel like you have a purpose. [At least in their experience.] Eventually, you realize that a purpose will last, even if everyone around you dies.
Time makes everything change. If your plan is based in a strong emotion, like anger, it's nigh on impossible for that to last very long, either. I hated my commanding officer for years. Wanted to kill him. But that faded, eventually. It had to.
She's smart. Dangerous. Interesting. I don't know, there's just something about her... it's not a romantic attraction, she's just... someone worth getting to know.
[She's a challenge, not just someone who is what she seems like. He likes people like that, who have layers you only see if they let you close enough. Like him, really.]
She might be closer than she thinks, if she at least wants to graduate. [Avalon pulls their orb out of their pocket and glances at it. Its surface remains black, but dark green swirls over it every so often.]
She might be. Sometimes, the greatest obstacle to graduation is ourselves. I certainly was. [It had taken his warden disappearing to give Rawne the push over the line to graduation.]
It can feel like something that happens to you rather than something that you cause. [To them, it feels like both. The Admiral will decide when they have changed enough, and their experiences here will cause some of that change, but they can control some of it themself.]
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When you never die, finding a system is a good way to feel like you have a purpose. [At least in their experience.] Eventually, you realize that a purpose will last, even if everyone around you dies.
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[They look up.] I guess that was in my file, then. [They might like to know how the Admiral finds all of this information.]
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Why?
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[When this fades, they can find another source of emotion.] What will you do when you go home?
[They want to find Adam again. If they do, they might be able to see him as someone of their own kind rather than as an obsession.]
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Root might take a while to graduate. She seems to like revenge.
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Finding a way to relate to her might help. [If she is anything like them.]
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Why do you like her?
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[She's a challenge, not just someone who is what she seems like. He likes people like that, who have layers you only see if they let you close enough. Like him, really.]
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I think that if you can relate to someone like me, you can relate to her.
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Does she want to graduate?
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She might be closer than she thinks, if she at least wants to graduate. [Avalon pulls their orb out of their pocket and glances at it. Its surface remains black, but dark green swirls over it every so often.]
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What happened?
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It can feel like something that happens to you rather than something that you cause. [To them, it feels like both. The Admiral will decide when they have changed enough, and their experiences here will cause some of that change, but they can control some of it themself.]
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