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From:

cactusy

They've been told. Problem is, they just don't care.

From:

major_rawne

I know. It's fucking frustrating. I will be spending most of my time with them; maybe that'll cut down on the violence.

From:

cactusy

What about the time that you're not spending with them?

From:

major_rawne

I don't know. Should I lock them up?

[It's not a serious question for advice, more of an annoyed snap.]

Edited Date: 2023-10-09 10:00 pm (UTC)

From:

cactusy

Dude, simmer down; this is literally your job, so don't act like having to do it is some unwarranted hardship. Why don't you just spend all your time with them?

From:

major_rawne

Because I have to sleep sometime.

[And have sex occasionally, but he doesn't feel like bringing that up.]

From:

cactusy

So do they, right? Or-- wait, do they?

From:

major_rawne

Their body has to rest. So, what, sleep when the baby does?

[He views Avalon as a child. The type that pulls the wings off flies, but a child nonetheless.]

From:

cactusy

Like I said. It's the job.

From:

major_rawne

I know. [He sighs.] I'm glad I'm permanently paired, but I didn't expect an imate who would be this much trouble.

From:

cactusy

Seriously?

From:

major_rawne

Yes, seriously! I expected work, but not a fucking... emotional void who stabs people on reflex!

[He realizes, a second later, that that describes him when he arrived all to easily. Perhaps this is karma.]

Edited Date: 2023-10-10 12:22 am (UTC)

From:

cactusy

[Shaw sighs heavily, but... okay. Yeah, valid complaint, she supposes.]

Look, I'm pretty much an emotional void. So if you have any questions or want any tips--

From:

major_rawne

I was similar for a while, but I'm out of practice dealing with people with their kind of... lack of impulse control. If you have tips, I'd appreciate it.

From:

cactusy

Focus on how they act and how they think, not what they feel. If they're full of shit when they say they're not capable of feeling anything, then you're just taking baby steps; nothing wrong with that. But if they really don't have the capacity for that kind of thing, you won't be frustrating the both of you while you bang your head against the wall.

Anyone can adjust their behavior. Even someone who doesn't have feelings.

From:

major_rawne

Focus on actions. I can do that.

I think they do have some emotions, they're just so muted they're basically not there at all. I don't care if they don't grow any more, I just want them to stop killing people.

From:

cactusy

That's-- basically me too, yeah. The whole "basically not there at all" thing is true from the inside, too.

You used to be like this?

From:

major_rawne

I was angry, when I first got here. So angry I didn't have room for anything else and for so long I wasn't really feeling the anger itself anymore. I felt hollow. Like the barrel of a gun.